I have three of these notes/letters that deafmute (I believe) from the Forever Delayed forums scanned and posted years ago. I can’t recall the source of these writings, so if anyone could provide that information it would be greatly appreciated! I recall my friend JS/bornagirl saying they sounded like letters written to a fan about a mixtape he was given.
Anyway, I came across these again recently and decided to transcribe what I could from them. I’ll edit the others in as I get them done.
There are a few words here and there that I cannot figure out, so if anyone else can fill those in then please comment and give me your best guesses!
Transcription and annotations under the cut.
I’ve got so many reasons to feel sorry for myself I’ve forgotten why I feel so sad today. I put on the tape “Non-stop to Nowhere” by Faster Pussycat. Emotion is hard for me but it must be ?? harder for them. Like the last 2 weeks stuck in front of soulless British TV, crawl out dead ??, my cars broke down and now faster fucking Pussycat. My head sighs nostalgic pushead. The death of rock. Non-stop to Nowhere. This kind of shit must be so easy to drum/drown/?? out when you’re self satisfied satiated corporate dream Faster Pussycat. Faster fucking pussycat. I’m tired of even thinking you exist. Plastic Plastic. It says nothing. The kind of music that thinks sex is important. And it ain’t. It’s useless. Don’t believe it kids. It’s the biggest lie. A new extreme. I fast forward the tape after the first 3 seconds. I don’t need to hear this at this time of morning. Tranquillized(?) icons. Gary whatever you sing it sticks in your throat. fucking Christian lies. I don’t need your humanity. The band that prays(?) together dies together. You are just functional session work. ?? weared ?? paralysis. Dream of being Jimmy Paige, play as many chords as you like it don’t mean nothing. There is nothing in your heart but a ?? balance(?) ambition. There is nothing in your head but record sale. Your guitar solos ain’t(?) sad or tired of life. They are typical swollen indulgence. And I know what ‘Rest in Peace’ will sound like today and tomorrow. And all it will ever say is Be Happy – Be in Love – Die. And never think, never question or open your ?? You are Valium. You are a drug that keeps the world down. You are Radio Salvation. You are Radio Death. Slavery to the beat – slavery to the pleasure – slavery to your ego. Anyone can play guitar ?? no emotion(?). Robot robot robot ?? by Sonic Youth. Sounds like Sonic Youth. Ladies and gentlemen of the jury, exhibit number one is ?? the seraphs, ?? misinformed, ??, noble ?? seraphs, envied. Look at this tangle of thorns. Nirvana ?? all over Dirty.
Iggy Iggy we love you. Piggy Mop. Iggy Splot. I’m a street car walking cheetah with a million dollars in the bank (variation of ‘Search and Destroy’ lyrics by The Stooges –Webmaster’s note) . Contradiction love it. Iggy made his pain visible. Wounds are always beautiful. EMF and Chilli Peppers may be ?? I do not know. I like EMF and Chilli Peppers. I always like Piggy Mop cover versions (EMF and Chilli Peppers both covered The Stooges ‘Search and Destroy’ – EMF’s cover and RHCP’s cover –Webmaster’s note). I wish MET’s version was more ?? I wish Chilli Peppers was less(?) authentic. I wish James from MET (James from Metallica?) had had his cock sucked by all the Chilli Peppers while he sang “Napalm.” Melancholy is the flower cutting through stone and “Napalm” should be sung like this. Also Flea should not have played bass. He should have gone to a party. But I love both versions. Won’t you “Sting Me.” All good boys like Black Crowes. (But are worried about the drummer) ‘Come on my sweet little thing what new things can you show me today?’ Nothing is new I know and this is even more so. ?? Brothers and Rod ?? innocence. A river line of memory pain. The backing singer is annoying but the coffee(?) is waking me up and it’s getting ?? Chris’ voice sounds like a broken doll which is a very good thing I think. And the guitar bit. Like the sound of retarded emotions. Black Crowes are important even though they don’t like rap music which is sad. But we must forgive them for “Sting Me.” Is(?) the first song on offer today. Second one EMF and Chilli Peppers. Second because they are cover versions and because they sleep around too much. Sting Me–a pregnant ?? ditched in a dead ?? Drift ?? infront of my fucking useless TV. It makes my life a little ?? when yr tired, eyes swollen, end of the century(?) nauseous, memory soaking like distance Black Crowes, Chilli Peppers, Guns N’ Roses, Clash, Stones, ?? is all that matters. Government fuck you up the ass, the girl you love leaves and all you got is music. And ain’t that the loneliest. I need a remedy.